The depression

Looking at the people in yer place, what's thee?
While leaving, what's thee?
Deep within the sky, behind the visible materials,
in the heart, bounded in mind,
what's thee?
Caged animals,
the source of staying in the cage is fear.
The origin.
The source.
Deep in the subconscious of all human beings.
However, is that all?
How about Frued's theory of self-destruction?
So much, so less.
So full, so empty.

Natrualized Corruption

Time Lost

Wasting a lifetime
Trying to find love
Nothing happens
No hope, no girl

Suddenly see her
But ten years before
Can't do anything
Used to be friends, nothing more

Now realized affection
Can go no further
Lost a lifetime
And lost desire

Try to forget
But can't
Try to die
But don't

Mind suddenly gone
No end is near
Nothing to do now
But go on

by Gary R. Hess

Although she might not exist in my part, the major thought of the poem still striked my mind hardly.
To live is such a hard and unbearable thing.
But go on.
Go on as the cure never exists.

開箱記

唐代有元稹會真，元有王實甫改編西廂，民國便有某V開箱示真。
在一切開始前，先來悼念先烈英雄。
P4 2G 1.5G Ram WinfastA170(應該) 創巨Augity 核電廠450W
N年的克難零件配合著借屍還魂的伎倆伴我走過了約莫十個年頭
雖說是開箱記，卻連箱子的照片都沒有
一早醒來箱子已經被毀屍滅跡了
ASUS P5QL-E / MSI ATI Radeon HD3800 / E8400 3.0-->3.6G / 4G ram
跑WOW，在薩塔斯城從FPS10(全視覺低)一次衝至FPS50以上(全高)
這流暢感，以前LAG成那樣還能殺滿地人，運氣真好頂端的這塊算是這個殼最實用的地方
這比前置又更好了
更方便也不會有踢斷USB的恐懼感

內裝實錄
排線綁得相當漂亮
都有用束帶固定
看看自己的陽春老主機
還真糟糕哪~
這機殼對於介面卡及光碟機擴充槽等等都很用心HD也用比較特殊的方式安裝
相當注重散熱
也符合本人多年來對於散熱的要求
所謂工欲善其事，必先利其器
不過除了電腦本身
為了改善住宅惡劣的電路環境
又另外添購了一項穩壓裝置
飛瑞C-1000
相當明顯地，接上去以後電壓不穩的狀況完全消失了
間歇性的低頻音爆從此跟我告別

那......
看到了這裡
人做事都會學到教訓
無論好壞
這次花了約3萬大元入手的電腦+UPS到底讓敝人學到了甚麼呢？
一個字： "重"
重達10kgw的UPS以及與該UPS重量差不多的主機相繼在十分鐘內到位
也許可以拿UPS來健身
(嚴格來說UPS還是沉重多了，只是這機殼大啊，出乎意料)
以下是這次配電腦的總結

The Third Day Of September

Every year during this day, I'm always inspecting all the others for a certain action. Of course, I must admit I'm not as diligent as the ones I expected; therefore, I also can't ask others to do as I thought. Seriously, I tried my best to do the things as I could predict. And bra, bra, bra.
Allow me to pronounce the expected number today, which is four.
Such a lonely number, isn't it?
Unfortunately, it's my fault to have so few.
Perhaps.

What if I met you three years earlier.

What if I met you three years earlier? After a serious consideration, I found the original one in the memories, which was just a kid with his own life style. Somehow, someday, that kid changed as I planned to be. Yes, the quotation I'd love to say, "To learn all others' own advantages and digest them for your own use". Let me take a guess, how long has it been? About fifteen years? How many people have been "digested" by you? Even, who is that "you" stand in front of me? An aggregate?
These are the environmental factors effecting our personalities, which include parents and friends. I believe this is the way you evolved so far. And you're convinced of it, which symbolized a pure evolution from one was harder and slower than taking from others. However, it didn't mean you don't have the ability to improve yourself. In fact, you're doing so good that you even don't know.
Three years earlier won't change any thing. Taking so many years to be the one you want to be, which caused you a mistaken impression, "what if I met you three earlier". According to the experience, the point that caused this illusion was not on the way of learning but accompanying. Yes, one is always lonely, so one is always seeking for another one to be with. The intelligence, charm, and personality. People live with so many instincts, which also contains self destruction. I'm curious on how you'll grow in the later days. Therefore, I'll watch you as you inspect me. Both of us need somebody to witness each other's ending, isn't it?

The end of my military life

The same, boring life continued for a couple of months, which really tortured me for a while by the extreme boring and annoying tourists of Taiwan; however, most of the met problems was due to my bosses. By the time I really believed my service here shall end in such a boring situation. Evaluating my work after my service in military, I'm confused with my abilities, which included a huge area without a mastered one.
At least there's one thing happened today cheered me up a little bit. A tourist from America came, which would happen sometimes. But this one was different. Since the first time of the lady from Hong Kong, it's a long time for me to have such a good experience of talking to foreigners; meanwhile, it's also my first time helped a tourist like her as much as I possible.
Thank you, Karen Marshall, please forgive me for listing your full name here.
I'll keep you card and remember we've had a good conversation once in Jioufen.

The day's coming

Bah!
Finally the day's coming,which has been expected and unexpected for a period of time.
How can one live in this world without contacting thee.
Once again, fear occupied my heart by a shameful reason.
And I know, when my destined time comes, I will not commit thee.
It's another fear can't be conquered.
What a shame.