The second golden age

第二黃金時期時間上約略是在第一黃金時期中段才開始的
包函了三個玩世不恭的白痴
一個充滿個人色彩的鐵三角
放蕩的事蹟
不羈的生活
豪放的態度
無敵的鐵三角
這兩段黃金時期堪稱最快樂的時期
互相重疊
如今已化作泡影
人生自然是要前進
不得不前進
但是
到底是要去哪?

返璞歸真

到今天為止離職就滿1.5週
昨天也回去看了同事一下
受歡迎的人還真是痛苦
只是我跟另一位好同事一離職裡面現在員工居然暴增成兩倍
還說要準備踢人...
果真是時不予我，天不予我...

自省了一下自打工之後的行為處世態度
也許我真的變兇了
不過打這份工也讓我看清不少東西
不少以往沒資格評論的都變成可以直接評論
只可惜，有資格評論以後反而會說的更難聽

那到底這段日子我的心態有沒有轉變？
物理方面的抗性問題就撇開不談
心理層面呢？
我打開瀏覽器逛了逛網站
偶然間看到以前用的簽名檔

開心的日子不難找，但他只給懂的開心的人過。
Day of happiness is not to find; however, it is only for those knowing what happiness is.

熟稔而陌生；平凡而偉大
Familiar but strangeness; commonness but greatness.

這起碼是五六年前用的吧
跟現在的我倒是沒什麼差別
重新品味過去的自己
心中某處卻隱隱作痛

是她
不知道她現在過的如何
希望已經事過境遷

遙望星空
仍有許多事得在入伍前解決
也許
在工作時
我許下了太多的承諾也不一定
畢竟
我是那種接一件做一件的人

The wonderful world

The world is not beautiful.
Like tortured in a disaster.
The world is not beautiful.
Like drowning under the water.

Thus it is.
Even lost in the mist of jungle.
Thus it is.
Even not knowing the meaning of life.

The world is not beautiful;thus it is.

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Not a good one but still decided to put it on.

The boy, the tragic.

"What a mass, clean it up!",a mother yelled at her child who sat on the sofa and watched TV quietly.

"What's wrong?", said the boy who seemed to not realize what he did to make her angry.

"I don't want to see your backpack, disappear at once!", his mother kicked his backpack, and the backpack rolled and fell on the ground.

The noise from the backpack angered the mother again, she stepped to the kitchen quickly without any word. The boy took his stuffs carefully and then escaped to his room right away.

Since he has self-consciousness, he is always suffering his mother's bad attitude. To him, she is his beloved mother,and so is her mother. However his mother's way of love is to place him in a place and keep him as possible. In some case, the boy seemed to be treated as a pet of emotional assistant.

"Why can't I be free as others?", one day the boy decided to ask.

"Because I feed you, I OWN you, and you shall not do anything that I don't permit.", his mother answered the question impatiently.

Day by day, the boy stayed in his own prison and the desire to be out became stronger and stronger.

"The world is danger and without me you can't survive throughout the reality of this society."

A year and a year, time elapsed without any warning.

The boy sneaked secretly to the top floor of his home, it's high and might be lethal with a mistake step.

The scene here is fascinated. The boy was attracted by it and stepped closer to the border of building.

"Do not go any further! Come back, we can talk!" ,his mother arrived at the moment.

"Do you know? Do you know? I think some parts of me was dead for a long time. If many parts of me was dead already,then now what would the one who stand here be? ", the boy didn't look any sadness but some kind of peaceful.

"Please come back, I could give you anything you want. Just don't leave, I can't live without you.", the mother became very anxious.

"Then do not come any further,my dear mother. I know you can't live without me, so I tried to fit your regular days. Unfortunately, my soul has been lost through these years. Now what am I? Maybe just a heartless minion. So long, my dear mother. Please treat me as I was never born.", the boy jumped out of the building, there's no pain or sadness on his face, the only thing there is nothing.

"No!", with his mother's crying, the boy's body fading quickly from her sight.

By thee I am free.

After a long long time I am free.

To end my last breathe, my soul shall be eternal, or nihility.

So long, my whole life was just like a broken doll.

The broken parts were never found again.

Farewell to the world.

By thee I am free.

After a long long time I am free.

To end my most desire, my mind shall be endless, or empty.

So long, my whole life was just like a deaf-mute.

The voice and sound shall never be found again.

Farewell to the world

Farewell.

禱言 Made for AXST

禱言 Made for AXST

God of creation, followers of thee.
By the oath , followed throughout life.
With my blood, true vow shall be seen!

創造之神，汝之信徒
藉立此誓，終身隨侍
以吾之血，見此真誓

God of humankind, worshipers beneath thee.
By thou strength, loyalty within eternity.
With my bones , great work shall be done!

人性之神，汝之崇者
藉汝之力，永世忠誠
以吾之骨，鑄此偉術

God of eternity, sinners beyond thee.
By thou art, treasure inner ash.
With my soul, new life shall be born!

永恆之神，汝之罪人
藉汝奇技，腐朽神奇
以吾靈魂，誕此新生

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回到了懷念的故鄉
卻只見遍地斷壁殘垣
處處都是巨大詭異昆蟲以及與之激戰村民的屍體
由現場的慘況可以看出當初這裡是一陣激戰
電擊，凍結，焚燒，各種魔法的痕跡處處可見
地上充滿著已經分不出是哪方破碎的內臟及血水
男子就像是著了魔一樣往某個方向跑了過去
然而走這段路卻是如此的艱辛
男子不時被地上的斷肢及屍體絆倒
然而卻無法阻擋男子走向前的決心
在一家藥草店倒塌的牆壁留下的夾縫中
他看見了一男一女的屍體
頓時
他的瞳孔瞬間撐大
一股莫名的空虛感扶捲而上
就好像身體的一部分被人抽走一樣
他試著將兩具屍體從夾縫中拉出
卻只是徒然
他後退了幾步跌坐在地
許久未有任何動作
接著
他又往另一個方向急奔而去
這次他跑到一個位於村子角落的兩層樓建築之前
意外的是
這棟建築物居然完好如初
建物周圍佈滿了巨蟲的屍體
其中
還參雜了一副女性的遺體
然而她的腹部卻嚴重的塌陷
使得整體比例看起來有點詭異
因為她的下半身已然消失
而裡面的內臟早已不知道散佈在這個"戰場"的某處了
只剩下滿是鮮血的上半身
看來這個屋子一直在她守護之下保持完好無缺
但她卻不幸喪生
"不..."男子就像嬰兒般地癱軟的跌坐在那名女性的遺體前
口中開始喃喃低語
突然
男子抱起殘缺的屍體
四下尋找那失去的下半身
最後發現在不遠處的一隻巨型蜥蜴的口中
這隻蜥蜴已被燒的體無完膚
男子搖搖晃晃的在原地徘徊了一陣子
最後雙腳一軟就跪在滿是綠色汁液及紅色血泊的地上
雙眼無神靜靜望著天空
就好像自己也已死在這個地方一樣

Be gone, mortal

2006/10/30

Be gone, mortal

Why are you crying, my sweet heart?
You're not allowed to cry, aren't you?
When the room of cure become the room of injury, where shall you be? Whom shall be talked to?
Nobody, you knew it, and you had no choice.
By no means you tried to escape, but where shall be the end?
Meaningless pains lead to no where.
Just as a small boat towards the waterfall without the ability of retreat.
Tears are meaningless, but things behind that would be tasty.
The flavor of passions and regrets is like a red hot chili.
Be gone, mortal emotions.
Be gone, mortal reactions.
Be gone, mortal thoughts.
What if the feelings of helplessness, anger, and disappointment are crowded at a time, what'll people do?
Be gone, and farewell.
Be gone, and farewell.
Be gone, farewell