Gossip gossip during the first spring in 2008

So many things changed dramatically these days, which included both physical and mental parts. Different from the past, I tried to be harshly disciplined one. Doubting everything I might face, friends, co-workers, bosses, and even myself. What is it that I'm seeking for? So hard. Looking at my limited abilities, I can't even imagine more.
So many unbalanced things came these days, which showed me how corrupt the environment is again. Hard work? Excellent ability? What for? What's the purpose of your actions? A better life in the future? I don't understand.

Now I can barely understand why I seek for my golden age in SA. Too many limitations has made too many gloomy souls. Understanding what I has lost has tortured me a lot. Moreover, seeking for the lost pieces has done even.

But, what if. What if?
What if the binding chains are gone, will I?
Will I? Will I?

To Rita

For a letter never delivered, I shall still write thee down. During the past years in R's Studio, which really made me felt I was really doing something worthy to others by meeting many people in different areas visiting your site. It's really happy and thankful as I found that my name was included in your autobiography; meanwhile, our relationship built in the Stone Age encouraged me a lot in the unreliably internet society, which bloomed a true friendship only by the communications of the words. Tata, Evonne, XYZghost(Bogle), and many other friends I met at your place were a nice experience.
I really appreciate your hard work connecting so many from so few. Yes, my memory shall be ended in such a feeling; however, in a long and lonely journey seeking for myself in the loneness world, I did conceive you into another ideal, which sometimes confused me a lot.
Since you and your work left me, things changed quickly. There're two parts consisting of my entire life, school life and it's after life. I'd like to define it as "internet life". And the most of it during that time was keeping staying at your site. The problem was pretty clear, I need a substitution. Strangely, I did have my solution, and it did work. On the contrary, an empty feeling was filled with my heart again, which appeared once in my junior high. You knew I have had a habit of writing, and you even gave me a space to place my works. In some cases, I shall say sorry to you for transferring our relationship to a romance in some of my works. I do miss those days. People will always change and we shall keep walking. Yes, I knew them all well. But for now, give me some more time to conquer my weakness. Let me stay in this little swamp for a little longer. Things will be done, shall be done.
Sincerely,

your friend, Vanity
20080212 in Jioufen

The shabby doll

A shabby,
one leg-missing doll
with an empty cup
in its hand.
The missing part
lay on the ground
waited for its salvation,
which will never appear.
The eyes made of buttons
were no more shiny.
As the days elapsed,
it was covered by dust
until the whole
became the dust.

The fallen knight, the fallen kingdom

A knight fought for his kingdom for a long time.
Even it's rotten and corrupted.
Until one day he realized there's nothing he can do.
The knight left without a sign.
The king claimed that if the knight confess his sin,
he'll forgive what he has done.
However, the knight refused to return there.
All the people in the kingdom were discussing about his betrayal.
A shame and an unhonored action.
The corrupted truth lay behind the gossip.
Somehow the knight was also confused with the situation he met.
To leave it be or return to wait for the next generation.


The knight heaved a deep sigh.
"I've already failed all my men in the necropolis. Too much toleration made too many tragedies."

PhpBB3 installed!

無意中發現phpBB3 release了
手養就抓下來玩了一下
真的是超神的
很多功能都整合進後台了
省了很多功夫
就一個論壇來說該有的功能都齊全了
再配個OScommerce
就可以自己開店了

車關

夫犯太歲車關者，視太歲令，必摔之。
"弟弟呀，你今年犯車關，到五月以前都要小心哪！"
恩，來不及了，就在幾小時前，已經摔了。

最常跑的彎道怎麼會變成死亡彎道
是砂石
它加了一層砂石

切肉，縫合
韌皮，針鈍
以及破傷風針
最後是20幾針醫生的愛

最大的痛苦還是換藥
換藥
痛
從骨子裡透出來的痛楚
伴隨著滲透出紗布的血水
緊緊地黏在傷口上
告訴我夜晚還漫長的很

鼠年

Rock man 2 rocks
鼠年到了
整個年的總檢討令人失望
不過也在年前把一些會讓人難過的狀況做了了斷
破釜沉舟
接下來
又是什麼？
好想把一切直接做個了斷
但那也是不負責任而任性的行為
等吧
等所有的鎖鏈都粉碎的那天到來
Things shall be done then.
Perhaps.